reflection


So, upon reflection, I have realized a few things. I have realized that I have many many friends, all of whom I love in a different way. I have good friends, too, because we are close, and we share. I think that this is the essential part of our relationship. I know that most friendships are based on mutual respect and understanding. I know that most friendships are based in common interests, and a certain amount of sharing, but, I feel like my friendships are just that one degree deeper. I feel like the relationships I have built with these people, have a strong foundation in mutual respect and understanding, as well as affection and love. I feel that we share with each other our ideas, our frustrations, our loves, our trials and tribulations, but on that deeper level. We trust each other deeply and completely, or as completely as anyone can ever trust other people with their thoughts or emotions.

Yes, there are somethings that each person has to work through for themselves, in the long haul, but it's nice to have people who will just listen. It's nice to have people who will let you vent your spleen, and just be for a bit, no matter how you need to "just be" at that time. I can't count the times that my friends have been there when I was feeling lonely, or when I felt so self defeated. I can't count the times that I've cried and just talking to them seemed to make it better for a bit. I can't count the times that life has just seemed to pile up on my shoulders because of my own mistakes and my friends have done the best thing possible for me. They have delivered me a good swift boot to the head, and told me to get my act together. I think that is one of the best parts about my friendships, is that my friends and I keep each other grounded to earth. We don't lie about things to spare one another's feelings when it comes to important issues. We have this way of being straight forward with each other about things that I don't see in other relationships, and I think that is one of the things I appreciate most. I appreciate being told I'm doing something stupid when I am.

I appreciate having friends who aren't afraid to be honest with me, when they feel like I've done something wrong, or that I have no one to blame but myself for a problem. They still sympathize with me, but they give me an outside perspective and a firmer grip on what actually is. I have to say, that I couldn't ask for anything more, as far as friends are concerned. I miss them greatly when I don't get to see them, at least as much as I miss Zura, and just as much as I miss my family, because they are like family.

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