Cut me to the bone

Please, 'cause I dont think I can stand another second without you hurting me
I mean, really...You are so good at it and I am so good at taking it
So do it quickly while I am used to it still
I've cried out to you so many times trying to be what you want me to be
Here you come again at me and I wait like a fool
Wait and wonder when my one wish will happen
I know you can do it and yet you won't
Do you take pleasure in my pain... ?
Delight in my sorrow... ?
Do you laugh as I love... ?
I often wonder if it is all a big payback for the things I did
Now I finally found something real
And you keep her out of reach
What a lovely trick to pull on me
When I thought all the time you were listening
You only taunted