Developments with Catherine

I went out with Catherine last night, and we had fun. She came back to my house for a while; we just talked and I taught her some chords on the guitar. Then I walked her down the road to get a taxi. 

We hesitated as we were saying goodbye, and she said 'may I kiss you?'. (Kindda funny when it comes from a girl though) I sort of nodded and smiled, and she did. It was alright, not brilliant, not horrible. It's been a while since I was kissed, and I have to confess I was thinking about Zura. I did fairly enjoy it. 

When we finished, she said 'I've wanted to do that for so long'. I have entangled myself already in yet another relationship which is going to be weird. 

I still don't know if I like herin that way at all; I don't really fancy her. but I must confess, my lust overtook me and i wanted to be kissed by someone, anyone. 

I don't know what to do. I have to decide what I want, and then let her know. I think she wants a full-on boyfriend/girlfriend thing, which isn't really on my agenda seeing as I'll only be here for another 3 months. 

I like her a lot. I don't want to hurt her. But I don't want to get too deeply embroiled in some sort of relationship that I don't want. But do I want it? 

Poor Catherine. I need to sort myself out. We're going to see the new matrix film on friday, and I jokingly said 'don't think I'll be doing that [kissing] during the film; I'll be watching every minute' and she looked kind of funny and said 'I want to see you before then'. hmm. I most certainly don't want a woman besotted with me if I can't return that feeling to any extent whatsoever.