Complicated

The problem with people who long for love and lack it is desperation. There is this overwhelming desire to be with someone since the solitude is unbearable. This is a formula for disaster.

I meet a girl who is the least bit interesting and already I'm looking at the possibilities for the future. Suddenly, every little thing has meaning. An inadvertant touch could be mistaken for something more sending mind made electricity flowing through me upon contact. A smile is never simple anymore. A glance is never swift but lasts forever. Nothing is the same.

Can you see how nothing but chaos can occur?

Before I can let anything develop I've scared her all the way to mars. Or if I find something that dissuades me from taking it to the next level, I've lost the opportunity of establishing a friendship. Talk about complicated.

However, if you play it coy, you could eventually become friends. Then comes that proverbial "friendship line" that when crossed can bever be returned. The friendship is too great to risk. Ugh.

So now I don't know what to do. If I make a move I might offend her. If I don't I may have missed a golden opportunity. Better to just wait and see what happens huh? Well, she's leaving soon. How's that for complication?

People often say that love just comes, you shouldn't look for it. So much easier said than done. How can you tell someone who wants nothing more than to be in love not to rush. It's like making kids wait until Christmas morning to open the presents. At least the kinds know it's coming, I'm still in the dark.