I'm scare
the answer is, i'm scared of everything...i'm scared to let someone else make me happy, and to be happy with someone else...i'm scared it wont be as great as it was with you (and i know it wont be the same), yet i'm scared it will turn out just like we did...i'm scared i'll hurt you, even though we both know this is something i have to do...i'm scared that you'll find someone else too...no matter where i'm at in life or who i'm with, i know that its still going to hurt when you start dating again, and even more when you find someone that you really care about....i'm scared i'll let all these thoughts and feelings get in the way and i'll mess things up...i'm scared i wont be good enough....but most of all, i'm scared of losing you forever. when you said "it's hard to let go isnt it?" you have no idea how right you were...i've never been able to let go of you...but i keep getting closer and closer to actually doing it now, and it terrifies me. i'm not sure i can...sometimes i just want to hold on to you and never let go....even though i know the best thing for me to do is to really let you go this time...walk away and start over with someone else, and see where it goes...its the only way we'll ever know if what we have is still real....
i know that you know all these things already...i know you want me to be happy...you want the best for me...you always have. we have both been so selfish in the past...but this...all these things you want for me, all the things you said to me lastnight...its completely selfless of you...
i'll love you forever.......no matter what happens between us, no matter where we are in life or who we're with...you'll always have a piece of my heart...a part of me will always love you. and now its time for me to say goodbye to you...to finally let go...maybe forever, or maybe only for a while. but it has to be done. i've spent every day since we met, just waiting for you...and i can't do that anymore. i've been there while you were in love with someone else, while you were just a friend, while you were figuring out where you wanted things to go with us...i've been there all along, patiently waiting. you've been worth the wait, and i'd do it all over again...but its time for me to let you go and stop waiting...if anyone is going to wait now, its your turn. and if you really feel the way you say you do, then i know you will.
Comments