I hate crowd

You know, Im often left glaring at the T.v. after one of those beer commercials. You know the one's where life is so perfect and a group of guys and girls are out having a blast, living it up, getting drunk. Well, Besides the drunk part I wish my life were a lot like that. Im lucky if I see any of my friends at least once a day, let alone go out and do something fun.

It's really my fault, Im so horribly shy, that the prospect of meeting new people is enough for me to balk at. Going out into a crowd, forget it, I'd rather sit at home and ponder the meaning of life. Crowds scare me. Hell, people scare me. Im suddenly reminded of the show Friends, Im sure there's like a small statistic of people who actually are in a group of friends living near each other, with each day an adventure in comedy. Sometimes I often find myself dreaming of having that life, to be held in a high regard with a small group of friends, It's kinda sad to know that the amount of friends I do have I can count on one hand, and their both guys.

So much for having a best friend who's a girl. I think it'd be pretty cool, someone I can pester about the what women think, and why they sometimes do crazy things that somehow men just dont seem to mind. Im babbling now, and in fact I think i've forgotten what the main point of this post was. Something to do with how mainstream media glamorizes friendship's and how I want to be a part of that. Ah, if all dream's came true.